pain turned into magic

i cry, i weep, i sow
i feel like no one will ever know…

night like these make me forget
what its like to be free ~ nights like these make me think… is something wrong with me?

i wake up feeling empty as can be ~ what will i do if this never lets me breathe?

the fear runs among my skin
as my emotions run amuck
feeling so fucking stuck

i remember
that everything i need
i hold beneath eyes reach
everything i need
i have inside of me

so i let my breath
guide me
to all that is creativity
which will one day inspire others to see
the light i see in you & me

through all my wildfires
my screams
i still manage to see the light
i didn’t forget this time
i kiss this sadness goodbye
to be felt another time

where my havoc
will be pain turned into magic

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wrote this back in 2021