I know you're in here...

I know you're in one of these subreddits just scrolling your heart away. My guess is you're either looking at other men dressed in women's clothing and loving the sexual poses or reading through slutty confessions fantasizing you're there, or lastly watching sexy dom women pegging other guys.

Honestly, you know that I usually don't care what it is, but right now I'm absolutely just hurt. The thing is, after what happened the other day, followed by our long conversation, I'm not sure what to think or how to feel anymore... What I do know is that even though I didn't have the best day or night yesterday, I still wanted you. I wanted my boyfriend to randomly come pick me up, throw me on the bed, and give me everything I deserve, but that never happened. I'm left here in the living room, knowing exactly what you're doing, and all I can think is, "he's really not attracted to me" and "he wishes I wasn't even here".

I doubt you will even sew this, who knows. I'm not even sure why I'm even writing on here. 😥