This post mentions topics one might find gross

Don’t read further if you don’t want to read about a topic that may be found gross.

Topic is defecation.

So I have a morning routine. In 2022, I left the house before doing this morning routine. I came back and my heart was beating after. Basically, this morning routine which consists of drinking water and using mouthwash, calms me down.

That said, I get very anxious when defecating. The wiping is endless for me. Today, like in the past, it was just scary but didn’t take long. I might just try using mouthwash prior to make my mind feel like the morning routine has been done.

Its very hard when one feels the urge to defecate in the morning and gets scared. It’s hard living with what I live with. It’s hard sitting on the toilet like “I hope this was a false alarm”.