A lonely outcast in search of friendship

I’m 21 years old, and all my life I’ve been an outcast. I don’t have any friends. I didn’t have them at school either. I grew up without a father. Not only am I an outcast, but I also live in ukraine, where there is war and fighting. My home is in a war zone, but right now I live far away. I feel really bad — sometimes I just want to go into the forest and scream. Before the war, I could cope with things more calmly, but now my anxiety has gotten much worse. My mind can hardly take what’s happening anymore. The standard of living in my country is very low. It’s not like in the EU — prices here are high, while salaries are low. That’s the reality. I feel very lonely, and I’m looking for support and friendship. I want to find someone like me, preferably a girl, to talk to — someone just as lonely, just as much of an outcast. The truth is, I don’t understand English very well, but I speak russ and ukrainian fluently.