This test has ruined my self esteem

Taking for the first time this weekend. I wish I was kidding when I say this test has ruined my self esteem. I briefly was getting mid-high 160s but I’m stuck at mid-low. Have been studying since April.

I kinda thought i was smart and would be able to figure this out. Doesn’t help that I know a lot of people at T14 (so I guess they figured it out). I’ve been keeping this journey to myself. Only my family knows I’m even trying this. I’m just embarrassed and feel like a failure.

Trying again in November but it’s making me question if this is even the career for me. Just venting. Words of wisdom appreciated :)