Permanent Psychiatry care?

I’ve literally never posted on Reddit before but I am not really sure where else to turn or what else to do, as I think I have exhausted my options.

I am truly just a mentally unwell person. I am emotionally unstable. I am a pathological liar. I have wrecked more interpersonal relationships in my life than I can count and I have tried everything you can possibly think of to fix it. I have tried several different types of therapy. I have tried dozens of medications. I have done inpatient. I have tried exercise and yoga and meditation. I think it unfortunately and truly just comes down to me being a bad person. I had a less than admirable childhood and it has rotted my brain of all coping mechanisms and logical thinking. I yell. I lash out. I can’t control my emotions. I have horrible sh tendencies that are impulsive and unable to control. I am burning bridges left and right and it is hurting the people around me.

I was wondering if there was some kind of long term or permanent facility that I could go to that insurance takes? Or something similar? Idk, I am not tough enough to full on commit s******, but I have to remove myself from this life, at least for a while. I am incapable being a part of society at this point. Let me know if this is even an option? And if it is, what it looks like?? Idk. Thanks.