Lost with ADHD and depression

Lost with ADHD and depression

I have severe ADHD and depression. No medicine has worked, and in my country there’s no real support and I can’t afford help. I feel like I’ve disappointed everyone, lost my youth, and I don’t see a future. Everyday I lose belief if any higher powerexists.. if it does i curse him/her..

I apply for jobs but nothing works out, and I’m stuck in constant anxiety and sadness. How do you keep going when life feels this dark? Any advice or words would mean a lot. I have nothing to live 4, I don't see anything i m literally living in a cage.. is it better to live miserably.. or just to die. Although I have roof of my parents they cuss at me 10 times a day.. Idk I can read it can't understand i can't learn.. nobody understands my struggle