I hate my own face, mainly because it looks adult. I want to be a kid

I hate anything 'adult' about my body, especially my face. I want my face to look chubby, round and childish. Not like an old hag. I have been obsessing for so long about this, got procedures done, hate to leave the house and let other people see that 'I'm an adult'.

Even tho I feel like a kid, I do want to date. My biggest dream is for some guy to treat me like a kid and just hold me and tuck my into bed at night. But I feel like I'm un-dateable, ugly, old, too many mental problems, disability and no job... Plus I'm afraid most guys want to put me into bed but not to tuck me in so to speak, I have a hard time trusting...

I know that even with more surgery I will never look like my kid self, but I cannot get over it or do something with my life.