How to deal with toxic pakistani family

im so freaking done with my family. i had been homeschooled for the past few years and my life had been so bad since then. My mom, idek if she loves me, i feel like she genuinely hates me. My entire life she had favored my brother the most and then my other 3 sisters. Whenever my brother did smth wrong, i was told "hes a boy, even if he do this, its okay" even if its talking back to her during arguments, doing sins or screaming at her. But the moment i do it, she gets physically abusive. Also id like to add i never do these things (talking back or screaming) intentionally, whenever my mom doesn't try to understand me ive to argue to get my point across her since she thinks "girls" should never have an opinion, they should ALWAYS listen even if its against what they like. Not only shes physically abusive but she's verbally abusive as well, verbally abusive to the point that I cant even comprehend how a mother could say all that to her own child. My siblings... My brother is the most selfish person, he would act good with you only if hes in the mood and my mom defends by saying "boys are like this, its in their nature" He can make any sort of joke he likes but the moment i make one and hes not in the mood, my mom says im the problem. He goes out with his friends EVERY NIGHT, and if he misses one day of not meeting his friends he literally throws a tantrum and my mom understands him and find ways to let him meet his friends that day???? I remember once i was joking about my brothers clothing cause it was funny (i never said something offensive) just a lighthearted joke, my mom literally said "dont say it, it will make him insecure" but few months later my brother was making fun of my PHYSICAL APPEARANCE, my mom was laughing along with him. My sisters OMG idek how people are bsfs with their sisters, my sisters are insane. They all make fun of the arguments, me and my parents have, not in a joking way, but in a way to use it against me so that i get hurt. Even if i stay stuff out of anger for my parents, they literally go and tell everything to my parents BUT i literally try my best to not tell my parents whenever they say something about my parents out of anger, i instead correct them, i dont use it against them. I never had a secret with my sisters ever LIKE EVER. My sisters literally gets so rude, my parents never really taught them how to speak with respect. My dad, he was the best out of this entire family UNTIL few days ago me and my mom were having an argument where she kept on favoring my brother and i kept on telling her that ive accepted my mistake whats the point of telling me again and again BUT she kept on throwing shades and was belittling me the entire time so i stood up for myself and talked back, my dad signaled me to go to the room so i did but she kept on saying things again and again, i couldn't keep in and argued back. She came into the room, started cursing at and started getting physically abusive to the point she hit me so hard that my head literally bumped so hard onto the wall, it hurt SO MUCH that i started screaming, my dad interfered and instead of stopping my mom, he started being physically abusive as well, he hit me even more harder and my head was swollen, my hands, face, eyes were all red. I was in so much pain and i had no one around me who could comfort me other than Allah. So the "reason" why my dad hit me, was because i always talk back and never lister silently. MY MOM IS ALWAYS AGAINST ME BRO WHEN AM I GONNA STAND UP FOR MYSELF??????? Mind you when i was younger i used to always listen to her silently but this boosted her ego. At times she would say "if you are not gonna listen to me then see what am i gonna do to you, ill ruin your life." She started acting like she owns me, she would threaten me every once in a while that ill take away your education privileges. My mom is very close minded, i told her my dream is to study abroad, she told me the education you get here is enough freedom, what more do you want. Ive had moments where i would go to school with injuries because how physically abusive she would get. Also, my mom never wanted to have more daughters other than me, she would always say once in a while, "i wanted sons" Moreover, my mom really isnt a motherly figure, the other day she argued with my sister and my sister isolated herself. My mom would say "theres so much peace in house ever since she isolated herself" and whenever she would scold her she would say "go isolate yourself its so much better without you." I cant even trust my sisters, brother, mother, father; ive started to dislike them. People say family is the only thing you can always run to but i guess not... what am i supposed to do, ive tried everything like communicating, forgiving, giving chances but i genuinely cant anymore. I feel so lost, it feels like i dont belong here. Ive to be around them 24/7 and it is becoming terribly exhausting. I’ve completely stopped talking to my parents and brother cause I’ve realised we don’t really get along and there’s always a fight between us except my dad, but i still avoid him cause even if my mom is treating me like crap, he always takes her side, although he used to stop her from hitting me but at what cost when he doesn’t see wrong in her actions (the real issue is he doesn’t take my side its because my mom will then start arguing with him as well, and their relationship would be affected. And my mom always prepares him by saying “dont take her side, take mine”, but he is a grown up man im sure he can stand up for me without any fear ifykwim) Im slowly gonna distance myself from my sisters cause its really not worth it to be around someone who is always using stuff against you, disrespecting you and what not. Moving out is not an option cause being a girl and at the same time pakistani, its literally not doable (smth only pakistani girls might understand).