I only feel ok with hate sex

I (17male) am only ok with hate sex. I do it with guys mostly because I like to fight during sex but with girls they never let me fight. I can't stand the thought of intimacy or just regular rough sex, there has to be pure hatred, (mostly them hating me) and biting and bdsm involved for me to not get feel strange about sex. If there's no fighting involved in the sex then I feel overwhelmingly strange. I dunno why I can only ever have sex if there's fighting during it and I bite them, but it sometimes doesn't end good for me because if the guy ends up dominating me I hate it and start crying. Is this a healthy sex life or is there something wrong with me. English isn't my first language sorry if there's mistakes