Check out this post… "13 Year's Gone".

Is it wrong of me to not want to feel anything right now? "And while I say i dont feel anything I feel everything at once" Seeing you're thought to be best friend of 13 year's happy without you, makes you think we're you ever important to begin with? I hear a lot of fellow people say "It's their loss". Don't get me wrong I do get that, but when it comes to someone you consider family, someone you did everything from laughing to crying to sleeping. How do you throw away those emotions from another being. Others make it out to be so easy when in reality its so hard to sit with these emotions. You're mind tends to spiral out of your control, not being able to break these feelings down the way I truly want to is mind tensing.