I hate you but I still love you deeply

Hi E, I know I’ve messed up a lot throughout our relationship and that I’ve been difficult. I know you said we shouldn’t be together bc there’s too much baggage, I don’t believe that I know if we worked together we could be happy. I hate what you did last year, we should have talked about it instead of acting like everything was okay, and that’s mostly my fault. I think about you day and night, believe me I’ve tried to get over you, I’ve been on dates and every single time it feels like a mistake. I’ve really grown in the 9 months we’ve been apart and I’ve seen my faults and i believe i’ve made a better version of myself. I want to give you space and I really hope you come back, people will think i’m being foolish for waiting for something that will never happen but tbh i’m happy alone so I don’t mind waiting. I hope you are doing well and that milo and dobbi are good too. Just know you’ll always be my red string no matter what. sincerely C