I really fucking want to kill myself but theres nowhere to hang from in my house

I know there are other methods, but hanging(and potentially overdosing but that takes longer and probably wont work) comes with the most pain.

I've been inclined by myself to believe that I deserve the worst of all tortures because of my mental state(severe mdd, ocd and anorexia). So I want to suffer even for the last of my seconds here.

I hate it all so much. I don't respond to meds, and therapy barely works. I'm criminally insane and I was destined to be this way clearly.

I have a date and a plan. I just need a way.