I am so fucking sick of everyone being a bit better than me at everything

Im not super unfunny, sometimes my jokes land

Im not super boring or a terrible story teller, sometimes what i say is interesting and stories sometimes are without punch but still structed

My way of speaking is a bit monotone but not actually one tone

I do have a resting bitch face but thats not the worst thing

I am a bit akward but not to the point pepole get uncomfortable (at least from my view)

My way of speaking isnt super expresive or loud but i try

So why does it always fucking end the same

• "if u guys are doin smth lmk", silence

• person i thought i started vibing with that one time we started speaking, next time passes me without a word

• i ask others, hows it goin, how was the hollidays etc. Noone ever asks me

• hanging out with a group of friends, attention is never directed about me ever anything

I just exist, some people even forget that i think

I am so done its been like that for 5/6 years now