I have a feeling my mom might know I’m a sissy.

So there have been signs for years now to be honest. The first close call was when I was about 15-16 I let my horny self go a little too far and I stole my mom’s g string. About 2 weeks after that she cleaned my room when I wasn’t home and I know for a fact she found it because it was moved… however she left it in my room and let me keep it. So there is no doubt she knows I stole it… Fast forward to 18 my mom and my stepdad sat me down to talk to me and ask me if I was gay. I told them I was straight and put the conversation in the past. When I was 19 my mom walked in on me watching BBC porn i tried to close it but it was too late… she saw me jerking off to a BBC gangbang…

Now fast forward quite some time I am now 27 living back home again with mom and sometime in the beginning of the year when my ex was still around my mom was talking about BBC to my ex! And bragging about how hot this particular black actor is but she made a point to do it infront of me… shortly after that she is talking about lingerie to my ex and also making a point to talk about it infront of me. Bringing up particular kinds of lingerie that I like wearing… My ex and I break up and my mom is going though some of her old clothes… she gifts me a dress… no words just walks into my room hands me a dress and walks out… since then we had some family friends visit who happen to be gay and a big topic of conversation while they were here was how it’s okay to be gay etc. and my mom made sure I heard her say “if my son was gay of course I would accept him”

At this point I am convinced my mom knows I am a sissy and I am not sure how to feel or what to do… Part of me would be relieved if she told me she knew about it all but at the same time I don’t want the rest of my family knowing. It would be nice to have a mom I can bond with over dresses and lingerie and talk about guys… but at the same time it’s also petrifying.

Has any other sissies been through something similar I’m not to sure what I am feeling. Sorry for rambling on I’m just stressed and needed to vent this.