I miss this kid

So I used to live in Miami with this kid named dreck and he was the best thing thats ever happened to me. He’s shown me to been good so many times and just be positive. He’s actually shown me this app because he like to see what happens around him so ima give it a shot. After I moved to Louisiana and he now lives in Gainesville Florida it’s been hard. We became more than friends and I didn’t expect that I didn’t know or what I wanted with the guy but I knew we both loved each other. I miss him and I was so mean to him and I would lie to him of stupid things but it’s because I was scared, he told me everything and I will to but I just couldn’t I wasn’t use to it. And I wish I can restart my friendship with him and the love we have. I keep having dreams of him and just more and he hates me but for some reason even if he hates me or just wants to never see me again, and says he wish he never met me, I still love him.. I love the guy dreck Alexander Blandon and I hope one day he can forgive me and just start it all over with me.