Troubles manifesting SP

Sometimes I feel stupid for my questions because I know that I should just believe the reality I desire, but it’s just so hard sometimes. I manifested him back a few times, once he commissioned me for art, another time it was more of a hookup, and I confronted him telling him I felt a little used when he didn’t get back to me for a week after when he had told me he wanted to see me as much as possible when his mom was away. (And being over his place it’s very evident he lives with her.) I stood up for myself, and I told him what my true feelings were for him. I haven’t heard back in months, and I’ve been doing scripting, robotic affirming, gratitude journals and more. I’m scared he might have a girlfriend now because he was in a tagged photo of someone else’s, and he had matching drinks with this girl. Although I’m not sure if she would even be his type. It’s easy for me to go down these theorizing worrying rabbit holes. I keep getting these random bursts of anxiety, almost panic that he’s seeing other people, that he’s with someone else, that I messed up somehow, and I just don’t know what to do. I’ve been affirming a lot more, and I’m trying to not obsessively do tarot readings. After I confronted him he stopped looking at my stories, liking my posts, and I feel like he’s avoiding me. Do you guys have any advice? And I feel like it’s so easy to feel stupid sharing all these things in manifestation groups, so please take it easy on me lol.