It changes nothing

I want to tell myself that I wasn’t in love with you that I was just in love with the possibility of you but it isn’t true.

Sometimes the universe sends us people to nudge us along. Someone that doesn’t show to demanding anything, but someone you become so fond of that you begin demanding more from yourself.

Before you know it, life is better. You are reminded that there is still a spark lit within. A flame inside both in love and in life in general. That “young love” passion doesn’t have to dwindle and disappear as you age. That while you’re no longer a spring chicken, there’s an inner piece of you that still remembers and can embrace those soft feelings from before the world hardened you.

That’s what I realized today when I considered if I was in love with the idea of you and what you, what we could have been. It wasn’t because of the future possibilifies, it was because you took me back to the basics. A place where happy endings are still possible and while we aren’t getting our happy ending with each other, you erased some of the disillusionment that it’s impossible altogether.

That alone breathes life back into me and is part of the many reasons that I will never regret you. You’ll always have a place in my heart regardless of how/if you decide to show up. Not being right for you, doesn’t mean you’re any less important it special to me. You’ll always be the best human by par in my world.