Puri zindagi padhai ka nasha kiya bhot kuch mila but kya kru ye ab nhi chadrha hai iska nasha

Spent my life like a loner literally never went out never wasted time on a bs the most i did was listened to songs. I have acquired self control as a positive takeaway and now I'm doing good in life. My mind has become overactive too. I have so much self control that even if a girl is in bikini in front of me I will not look at her. But in downside my mind doesn't push me to take risks now and I never dated too. I actually want to live my life with a carefree girl who can teach me to live and what all i missed, want to go with the flow but this mind gets satisfied real quick and doing something productive is the most easy thing for me, but now what how long i can I do that plus at the end I realize how lonely I'm in life.