i feel like nothing will ever work out for me

i'll delete this soon, i just need to vent.

i turn 22 in less than two weeks. i graduated with my bachelor's last year, 18 months ago to be precise, and still haven't found a job or even an internship. i've never been in a relationship, despite having wanted one since i was a teenager. i've experienced nothing in life that i wanted to. i've been miserable since 9th grade, 8 years ago. high school was terrible, college was terrible, post-college is terrible. childhood wasn't some picnic either. i very truly feel nothing will ever happen for me. i have so much potential, i'm intelligent enough to do better but i just can't catch a break. the default condition of my life is having nothing going for me. family, friendships, relationships, career, despite my best efforts nothing has worked out. i think i'm doomed. i think i'll spend the rest of my life just like the past 10+ years, watching people live the life of my dreams.