Idk what to do

Guys I think I’m blowing this out of proportion but basically, I had extreme low self esteem for a while like a while and I genuinly thought I was unable to get a gf for whatever reason, mind you I am a virgin and basically everyone around me had gf and what not, so I met this person online who identified as a they/them and are such a nice person, we texted a bit and flirted even though I’m don’t swing that way at all (Not against it at all) but it was the first time I’ve received attention like that basically telling me I look good and what not.

I wanted to meet up with them in person and basically just be friends and talk to them, it was pitch black outside and I had no idea they were around 6,5 and I’m 5,8, I was so scared and basically they told me Ina flirty voice I look good and what not and then they asked if they could touch me while already holding my hand, I was so frozen in fear and I basically fawned and said yes, I’m pretty sure they touched my private parts and I genuinly can’t remember, they said they didn’t afterwards but idk if they gave me a one second bj I cannot remember at all because i am so traumatised, they also kissed me on the cheeks and lips once idk why i didn't say no as i was so focused on driving and didn't have time to really register what was happening at the time, please tell me i did not lose my virginity as i did not have intercourse what so ever and im still the same person, ive booked in with a therapist tomorrow,