i miss my emotionally independent, awesome, and ambitious self

ex boyfriend cheated on me after 2 1/2 years of living together on discord. it’s been a month at this point i’m not even questioning why things play out the things it did. my brain glorified and projected my own goods onto him and it honestly sucks at the very beginning. this break up had a significant impact on my self confidence and it’s so hard to put myself out there now. i use to be a charismatic young woman and was comfortable in myself, now i feel so defeated and drowned in my own feelings. i miss my old self so much and i want to provide her with all the love i can but it’s so hard at this moment