My FP disappeared 3 years ago

She made a half assed apology and attempt to come back at one point but didn’t follow up on it. She has her own issues. I’m suffering for them.

I’ve tried to build up my own life for 3 years in her absence and frankly, I don’t know if I can manage it. My boyfriend is the closest I get to feeling understood. Our relationship is healthy and communicative. I’ve met new people. I go to events. I still feel empty.

I’m attempting this post a 3rd time because I keep getting removed by mods and I have no clue why. Life’s a charade right now. It’s a lot of work to maintain.