Found my rapist’s Reddit account

Okay this story is a huge rollercoaster, so you have been forewarned.

I found my rapist’s Reddit account about an hour ago. He is also my ex boyfriend. I found his now deleted Reddit account a few weeks before I dumped him. It was insane.

99% of the time, he was such a sweet man to me. That’s part of what made all of this so confusing and hard to come to terms with. He was funny, charismatic, and very affectionate.

However, the person I saw on his first Reddit account was entirely different. I saw comments where he was on sexual subreddits telling girls he wanted them, rating other women’s bodies, reminiscing on past sexual experiences with exes and fwbs, he said if an ex sent a nude randomly he wouldn’t tell his partner he’d jack off to it and delete it (he already had a history of cheating on me online).

Additionally, he made rude comments about me he never mentioned to me, there were probably hundreds of comments about his “crazy ex” before me (who I later found out he abused horrifically), he mentioned how they had a third person in their relationship (when he shamed me for being in an open relationship the entire time we dated up even when I dumped him), etc.

But the most shocking one for me was when I saw how he confessed that he made out with his best friend’s ex gf a bunch of times when they were still together. They were best friends since middle school, and he’s 32 now.

That’s when I realized that he was not a good man, he’s a manipulator and liar. I had a mental breakdown for a couple weeks until I dumped him. I did not realize he raped me until months later, and I went public on my experience.

Anyways, flash forward to tonight and I find his new Reddit account. He deleted his other one after I told his best friend about the infidelity. I scrolled thru all of it, and while it did trigger me, I do feel a sense of satisfaction because I know that he is absolutely miserable.

He can’t take accountability for what he did to me or his ex before me. In his eyes, we’re both “crazy liars.” He’s too narcissistic to confront what he really is, and it will continue to destroy his life forever. Unless he musters up the courage to face himself someday, but I doubt it.

He said I ruined his life and many of his close friendships by being open and honest about what he did. Good. He raped me while I was blackout wasted several times. But the only thing he takes accountability for is how he had an affair with his friend’s ex gf.

The craziest part is when he said that I hurt him more than he has hurt me. The only thing I did was come out with the truth.