IB is legit making me suicidal

M26 here and honestly, this program has ruined me beyond belief. I just got my first rounds of PGs and currently have a 23, it would be higher but my fucking econ teacher hasn't given a 10 mark question this year so for all he knows im still predicted a fucking 2(I worked my fucking dick off during the summer and learned how to answer it).Other than that I have also have to redo my entire fucking ee as there was a rule that the policy had to be implemented within 5 years which my fucking advisor didnt tell me until AFTER I SUBMITTED MY FIRST FUCKING DRAFTS. Other than that, my CAS isn't good enough despite me being in alot of activities and my physics pgs hasn't gone up from a 3 despite me working my fucking ass off. I definitely have depression( not diagnosed but it's pretty obvious) and am starting to get suicidal tendencies cause od this program. I've started self harming by hitting myself whenever im angry to not take it out on other people. I don't know how much more I can take. I wholeheartedly believe that if i don't get my diploma.I will kill myself. I've gone through so much pain and fucking despair that I dont know how much more I can take. I've gained weight and have become a fat loser as I have no time for physical actives cause of this program, and afcourse ive fought with my mom almost every week cause of this shit program

TLDR: IB ruined me