I am so shocked right now (long post)

So context; I'm in 9th grade, I really wanted to play on a PS5 since 6th grade. I'm in one of the educational boards which is considered pretty tough. I'm Asian. I have a brother who is 8 years older than me.

So my parents made this deal with me that if I get above 97% in the Annual exam of the school years, they'll but me a brand new PS5. I tried many times, but I always fell short, sometimes by huge margins and sometimes by tiny ones. In 8th, I got 96.2 %, I was this close 🤏🏻 to the goal, but my parents were firm about it and didn't buy me one. I've been trying since 3 years, and my want was slowly turning into desperation. I was dejected, but there was nothing I could do. So my brother works and he stays with us, so most of his salary is saved, other than for minors things such as electricity bills and all. Today, as I came homes from playing basketball downstairs, I see a PS5 sitting in our drawing room, GTA V downloading and my mother acting like nothing is happening. I swear, I was genuinely frozen for five seconds. I felt dizzy, this felt surreal. Then, I glanced towards my brother, who was listening to something on his phone. He pretended not to notice me but I saw a smirk on his face. I asked him how there was a literal PlayStation right there, and he said, "Yeah, I got it". Man, I was going bloody mad over there. His nonchalance actually made me so angry. I genuinely felt I was dreaming. This was fucking surreal. I asked him if he renewed it, because we have rented the PlayStation 4 once in awhile, such as on my birthday, but this was the first time I had even seen a PlayStation 5 in person. He softly said, "No, I bought it." And that's all. I ran to my mother, asked her, "How is there a PS5 at home?!!" She simply replied, "All your brother, he bought it." She didn't know about this either. Now some of you may not get me, but this is earth-shattering for me. I've spent stays watching unboxing videos. DAYS. And there's a PS5 at home, randomly, without introduction. When I asked my brother if I could play on it later on, he says he'll think about it. Someone give me moral support, I'm going crazy.