I tried to kms while u slept the whole night

I love you so much it hurts. I know my mental state is the root of all our problems, i hope you know i tried. nababaliw na ako, mahal. i can’t even talk to you anymore. i became so hyper independent sa’yo to the point na everything about me revolves around you.

alam mo, i tried to kms multiple nights in a row, idk, i never had the courage to do so, naalala kita, naalala ko nung unang mga taon natin na hahawakan mo kamay ko, kukunin mo yung blade, ilalayo mo sa akin – ngayon, napagod ka ata, naumay, nagsawa, pero kahit nasa worst nights ko ako, tutulugan mo lang ako.

did i hit ur breaking point kaya ba hindi mo na ako nahal? everything seems to blur na lang, ewan ko ba, i just want you to hold me again, haha idk