I got raped on my 18th birthday today

me and someone i met at club, we both had our birthdays today and we got cake and i said we can go to my place to eat it cause nothing was open at 5-6am, i was 100% sober cause i had only one drink at 12-1am and we became friends right so i invited him over so we can eat cake and nothing else just as friends cause ew?? but that stupid guy raped me i kept saying no but he just said its okay over and over again i say no and u say its okay i say no and blablablabla fuck you crying im never going to clubs again i thought people are nice and wanna make friends there but i guess everyone is there just to hook up with people

Im so disgusted i cant even look at men the same way before and im constantly scared if i see him around i want to kill myself i feel so horrible i cant do this