Need suggestions 🙏

I’m M 22 from lhr i’ve been seeing this girl for ig a year, at first she told me she was single. I met her started liking her in that way (obviously larka aur larki kabhi dost nahi ho saktay) after 4 months she told me she was not single was physically involved with someone, had done 2 abortions, still idk what i was thinking at that time but i was with her through all that mess . I just couldn’t leave her at that time still i thought she was the one, i still talk to her, things have been very awkward between us. She already knew i like her but she says that she can’t take a decision. She’s drained the hell out of me, literally tortured me by just talking about her stories with her ex that I don’t want to listen. I’m just blank about what to do rn, started smoking hash weed because I couldn’t control what i was feeling, it makes me relaxed at the time but ik it’s not good for me. I need suggestions please on what to do now😭 I don’t talk to her like i did before but mere se chora