46 [F4M] #NA #EU Switch ISO nerdy/gamer switch boyfriend for horror movies, gaming, and kink/love

I am looking for a serious normal boyfriend/girlfriend life partner type of relationship that starts online/LDR for a while with the POTENTIAL for eventually closing the gap. Be: a chubby masculine hairy BIG man in his forties, who is a reclusive homebody/WFH gamer INTO horror movies, an even switch like me or a dom leaning switch (but no pleasure dom interests please).

You must want a romantic relationship with me including all of the normal SFW couple hanging out things like in my title or the paragraph above in addition to kink to receive a chat back. Please mention that when messaging, or I may mistake it as a copy paste sent to all F4M posts.

To be clear: I am not looking for an "online dynamic" or "a bdsm dynamic" or a poly partner. I want a boyfriend. ENM is actually preferred though if it's the deadbedroom flavor. I am in a deadbedroom situation myself and am looking for an eventual light at the end of that tunnel. I'm a casual, relaxed, kind of chaotic woman in terms of D/S. Dating me in a nutshell is like hanging out on the couch, watching the latest shudder release, and then either a breastfeeding handjob or gagging on dick depending which way the wind is blowing in terms of "us" that night.

My dealbreaker fetish is CNC with you as either a top for me OR the fantasy of you and I are co-topping another bottom in that area. I have written extensively elsewhere on both that kink and bedroom interests in general. If you have a dealbreaker paraphilia, feel free to share that ONE with me, otherwise let's save talking about sex/kink until after hard limits have been shared.

Want to chat? Speak to me as you would if you were politely meeting a vanilla stranger on the street outside of a bookstore. No bdsm roleplay phrases, flowery erotica dialogue, or sex talk.

I have more vanilla or "SFW" personals up as well. The things written in them are rigid dealbreakers. I also have a SFW body image on my profile. Me? A hippie/pagan aesthetic, chubby but in a still person-shaped way, and think more primal priestess everyday look than pinup vixen even though I do own a lot of formal lingerie/heels/tasteful Morticia type clothing for date nights. I'm attracted to men who are also alt. in even some minor way or also even if it’s just being alt in mindset instead of physical appearance. Happy to HELP with that in small incremental ways if you've always been too hesitant or felt too "imposter" to try personal expression. From either side of the slash.