About to die, will take out 25000 euros of loans and will not pay back, no family, no friends.

Im a (27M) tomorrow morning i am just going to take out 25000 euros of debt and never pay it back. Was in foster care as long as I remember, wasn't a good kid so most time spent in the system, no family, most introverted person you would ever meet, my life was, work, home, eat, play video games and repeat. I have a condition that gives me 6 months, my only hope and end goal now is to live those 6 months like never before, and experience i never experienced. Just getting it off my chest and saying bye bye 👋