Fluctuating between wanting to be perceived and desperately wanting to disappear

There are months (like right now) when I just wanna hide away and rot. Wishing I didn't have to go to work and interact with people I couldn't care less about. Disappearing from social media and when it comes to the gym, I don't want to be perceived. As I've been in this state for a while, I even recently installed a pull-up bar and gymnastics rings so I have the option of working out at home and not be around a bunch of strangers.

Then there are other months when I WANT to be perceived. I want to be noticed, feel like a hot girl, build a social media presence, etc. It's like I go hot and cold. I wish I could just stay in one constant state instead.

Anyone feels the same and how do you manage?