I really hope I will some day find a man who will have no problem with getting tested for me because he will actually care about me

I really hope I will some day find a man who will have no problem with getting tested for me because he will actually care about me and my wellbeing, at least enough to give me a peace of mind and to trust him because he will actually want me to trust him and to believe in him because he will actually like me and want me unlike the last man I was in a relationship with, my abusive ex any time I would ask him to get an std test done just to ease my mind he would throw a fit every single time, he would get extremely mad at me every single time without fail and because of that I’m glad I’m not with him anymore because it’s now clear he refused to get tested because he just didn’t care about me or like me or want me because he hated me therefore I wasn’t worth it, I wasn’t worth him getting tested for me and I don’t want to go through that ever again I don’t want to be with a man who hates me ever again, I really hope I will some day find a man who will have no problem with getting tested for me because he will actually care about me to make up for the fact that he never did.