Feel like crying :(

I’ve been using my love honey dilating set since September 10 so it hasn’t been a month yet and I’ve been so proud of my progress. I’ve been able to move up a size comfortably within a day. I’m on the second to last size and that has also been easy.

The thing is I haven’t been dilating for 3 days since my boyfriend came round to visit me so didn’t have the time. I resumed my dilating on Monday and found that I was extremely tight and the size wouldn’t fit at all. Took about 20 mins to go in (and it wasn’t even all the way) when it previously took me about 1-2 mins to get in.

Tried again today and it wouldn’t go in at all. Why is this happening? :( why am I losing progress? I’m confused because I had a longer break from dilating before when I was on my period and everything was back to normal when I resumed and this is only a 3 day break :(

I asked Google if this was regression and I found out it wasn’t but it doesn’t make sense. Just feeling sad :(