Burnout and EXHAUSTED

Burnout and I'm exhausted

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Ok, so I have multiple neurodivergencies. I have Dyspraxia, OCD, Dyscalculia, anxiety and yet to be diagnosed albeit clinically obvious ASD and ADHD. I'm a cis woman, 30 years old. Currently don't have a cycle due to continuous birth control. I'm in therapy with a neuroaffirming therapist, who is also neurodivergent. I will be talking to her about this. I'm happily engaged to a man who is also neurodivergent.

My OCD themes are contamination, health and relationship based.

Ever since last summer, after my second COVID of infection, my health anxiety has been through the roof. Every ache, sneeze, cough, twinge. Every time I hear someone make a bodily expulsion. It's exhausting. My grandmother passed last September and that made things worse. My fiancé was diagnosed with OCD this year and he's had a rough summer, so my brain is split into twelve different pieces. I had RSV in June, which didn't help. My therapist said I'm in burnout. My fiancé says I'm in burnout.

My body has decided that anxiety will also manifest in physical pains now. A week or so after a meltdown or anxiety inducing event, there is a chance of my joints aching, my face hurting, feeling a funny feeling in my throat and head. As you can imagine it's triggering my COVID OCD. It's also completely random.

I had a massive meltdown last week because of my silly goose brain and lo and behold, an exact week later I get achy joints and back. My head is funny, not a headache. Completely dissociated. Dry throat that isn't sore but annoying. Near tears constantly. My brain is screaming to take a COVID test, but I feel it isn't that. I genuinely think this is all related to my weird ass neurodivergent experience. My fiancé has experienced the exact same thing as me, and agrees. My OCD does not. My fiancé is worried about me. I'm worried about me. I'm tired.

It's been a lot my dudes.

Edit: I've noticed the typo and I'm leaving it because it's applicable to my fried egg head right now.

Edit 2: taking COVID tests is a huge compulsion for me so I'm trying to not take one unless I feel like a dying Victorian child who longs for the sea.