Good evening friends, it's a bit of a personal question so I request you all to respond kindly and seriously.

I have been in a tug of war between my human self and my principles about what's the right way to approach relationships. If what I think is possible, real, illusion or just rare.

These are a few points that I would want in a relationship:

* an spiritual and honest (mostly, not strictly) partner
* someone who respects all views and acknowledges that we all are bound by ego and we don't know everything
* someone who's willing to keep learning
* someone who looks at intimacy as a sacred process of pleasure and creation
* someone who believes that intimacy should be calm, respectful, soft and consent based
* someone who is cooperative
* someone who believes in equality and not some extreme topics like feminism
* someone who is willing to grow together, the true meaning of ardhangini, equal in all senses
* and one thing from my heart, someone who's a devotee.

Apart from these I don't care about anything else, height, colour or anything. By relationship I mean real relationship that is beyond labels, call it marriage or whatever else is out there in market.

But after a few attempts I am starting to think that I'm delusional and such women or men (if you are a woman) don't really exist.

Based on your experience, rate my delusion on a scale of 1-10. I'm 21M btw.

Humbly asking: on a scale of 1–10, how delusional am I?