Thinking about going to the hospital, if I do that they take the safe option and I can’t be anywhere they aren’t * they are taking over everything need help please

I really need to go but they’re basically taking control of my life what I think and believe. It’s like they’re taking every aspect and place I go “if you go here we know and control this aspect of your life”

If I do that they take the safe option and I can’t be anywhere they aren’t *