30 [M4F] #London and around. surrounded by people yet feeling so alone.

It’s only recently I’ve started learning more about myself and it feels like the life I’ve built till now has really fallen apart. The people I know, the partner I have, all of it - it all feels as though if I no longer align with any of it. I’m not excited to see these friends, nor do I feel like myself with my partner.

I need therapy, yes, and I’m arranging it. The partner I’ve been with for over a decade, I’m pretty confident we will have to leave one another. How do you detangle an entire life shared? Finances, friendship, routines, dumb memories.

I don’t know exactly what I’m trying to do here? Fill the void? Throw myself a little over the edge to see if I can survive? Drown myself in some physical connections?

I really don’t know. This is about me: I’m 30, tidy beard and dark hair. Brown skin, 5’7. I’m kind, funny and also fucked up in my own ways. I have hobbies that stretch from time to time. Feel free to say hi, or message me or whatever