Beauty privilege exista

"Why do you care? It's just look"

And look is going to determine the way people are going to treated you for the rest of your days. "Just look" Yes, just people walking past me insulting me, making fun and giving dirty looks? "JUST" people considering me like I am not a human being. And it is not about gaining confidence. "Don't worry you are pretty to me" Well tht might sound cruel but i dont give a fuck. I will not give a fuck until your attempt of reassurance truly destroys beauty privilege. "At least you will have real friends who are not here for your beauty"it is not about having friends it is about the enemies, it is about people treating you like a litteral monster. It is about people finding you weird for doing something common, it is about the prettier people who does the same or are even weirder but are just called unintentionally funny it is about closed opportunities, it is about the loneliness you feel when you cry at night instead of sleeping after being tired all day, fo the only reason you realise you will not experience the chance of experiencing teenage love while the other people are only awake because they are calling the people with who they will live that.it may not be really serious, it may be just for fun but at least they are having fun.

It is about the shame you feel when you realise people can ee you. It is about the way people look at you with disgust in their eyes but laugh with other people. It is about the shame to be the only one in a group who does not have advantaging feature. It is about the hours of trying new makeups and clothes just for you to still look less good than random girls on the street who are not even dressed. It is about the desire to remove your face. It is about the despise of other people being so deep that you'd rather be dead than experiencing that. It is about the desire to die because you don't feel like a being like you deserves to live. It is about the way I cry as soon as someone sends me a picture I didnt ask for. It is about the shame, the aching heart when someone tells me I used to look ugly, because I didn't change that much since then. About the fact random boys you didnt talk to actually hates on you for the reason you were not born the cirrect way and seeing the people you like be with pretty girls while you dint stand a chance. It is about the fact I hate it so much than yes, "only looks" makes me wanna feel like I dont deserve to even live. Like I dont even WANT to live. It is about that feeling being almost constant, at least multiple times a week So yes caring too much about your look isnt being superficial but realistic and realizing how easier life gets when you are ugly