Rant I guess

So today I dealt with some pretty gruesome thoughts and hallucinations, and I feel like a monster for thinking these things and am afraid ill act on it, i’m a little calmer now but still afraid of tomorrow but one thing that helped me see myself as less of a monster was hearing myself sing, I was doing a song cover to try to find something to do and cope and I played it back and it turned out so good, my voice sounds comforting to even me. This is why I want to become a music therapist, music is so therapeutic and it’s helped many. I don’t know this rant needed a place to go