ending life can be rational when suffering overwhelms reason.

I'm 19, fully rational and philosophical. As I have understood, it's nothing but a void, where everything chances with time. Nothing is absolute other then death. I think my life is unvirteous and troublesome, both for me and people near me. I'm not depressed nor suicidal. I have realized that unvirteous life only brings pain and it should end. Tell me whatever, a brother, a son, a madman, or a reckless teen. I have gasped the truth. I'm a realized being. All I need is your help, tell me, I'm in hostel, I have no resources to end my life. What to do? Like ideas? Methods or something else?. I need it. Thank you. Lots of love ❤