Caught my mom cheating (again)

I'm (19f) the only person in my family who knows this which scares me sm and Ive never told this to anyone in my family, my friends no one so I want to ask y'all what would you do if you were in my position?

So my parents had an arranged marriage. My mother was just 18 and ik my dad isn’t perfect, and mumma deserves much better but he papa tried his best, he worked day and night for us. He didn’t deserve this. And my mom… she’s the sweetest person I know, I love her more than anything, but I just can’t justify it. and this is so suffocating as their child It’s been 14 years of these lies, and honestly, I don’t even know what a normal family feels like. All I’ve ever seen is this mess the cheating, lies, manipulation and the silence

the person she is cheating on my papa is our old landlord's married brother with two kids the elder child is now around 12 yrs old ig and also he is like a closest friend of my father till date and we’re 3 kids, my two elder brothers and I'm the youngest. My eldest brother is 24 now and

So we (me and my brothers) with my mother lived in a rented flat and father used to stay away for his job. So, when I was 5-6 yrs old that uncle came to our house and unhone mujhe paise diye chocolate khaane ke liye and I was so happy that I ran so fast to the store and came back quickly.

aur waapis aake maine socha mummy ko surprise dungi kyuki ghar pe sirf mummy hi thi uss time and maine bahut dheere se gate khola bina aawaz ke and maine dekha ki they were hugging eachother which didn't looked normal, they were giggling and It felt so weirdly off that I ran away silently and I remember crying silently, terrified not knowing what to do and Since then, I’ve been observant, and over the years, I’ve caught my mother with him multiple times.

As a kid I didn't knew what to do and how to react I js cried in silence because as every other kid I loved my parents so much and I was scared that if I spoke up, they would drift apart, and our family would fall apart too. So I kept quiet for around 14 years (idek?) and it's so suffocating-

Sometimes at night, I’d hear her whispering on calls after everyone slept When I asked, she’d say, “Tumhe sapna aaya hoga” or "pagal hogyi kya raat me kisse baat krungi" Basically she gaslighted me every single time.

A few years later, I found that same hidden phone again. When I asked about it, she literally snatched it from my hand and said, “kaam wali ka honga” then she said "kharab hai wo phone papa ko sudharne dena hai" and then She got so defensive even pushed me away and later denied it completely, saying, “Kaunsa phone?”

idk how to explain you have no idea how awful it felt crossing paths with that uncle on my way to school. He’d suddenly appear on our route even though no one he knew lived in my colony and he’d completely avoid me, not even making eye contact.

And fir schools ke baad waapis papa ke saath rehne Lage hum so I thought maybe it was over. But a few days ago, I found a new-looking Nokia charger at home. And mind you we don’t even have a Nokia phone so when I asked her, she said, “Arey apna hi to hai, purane phone ka,” but the charger looked brand new. Again, she got super defensive and gaslighted me

Wo uncle ne mummy ko ek keypad phone bhi gift kiya tha, jo wo hamesha chhupa ke rakhti thi. Ek baar, 6-7 saal pehle, mujhe wo phone mil gaya tha jab main kuch dhoond rahi thi. Us phone me sirf ek hi number tha call log me. I wrote that number and baad me search karne pe wo number ussi uncle ka tha.

And today… I came home earlier than usual. My mom was on a call (with him) and she cut it the moment she saw me. When I asked for her phone to use the hotspot (since mine didn’t have data), she held it tightly and said, “Tu apna phone leke aa phele” which was in another room so I knew something was up so I pretended to go to another room and came back quickly and she was startled (wo dusra phone chuppa rhi thi)

And when she finally gave me her phone, that same uncle’s calls popped up 3 times in a row. His name was clearly showing on Truecaller and maine pucha kiska call hai because knew I could clearly see her screen yet she said “wrong number honga ya delivery wale ka” Jab doobara call aaya tab maine pick kiya and he immediately cut the call hearing my voice:) So I blocked his number everywhere while he kept on calling

Fir shayad unki samjh aagya tha that I'm back home so he called my phone now and gave some excuse and said "main train me tha isliye call cut ho gya tha"

That’s when it hit me... after all these years, nothing has really changed :))

Tldr; Caught my mom cheating on my dad with his closest friend (our old landlord’s brother) when I was 5–6. Thought it ended, but after 14 years, I still keep catching signs hidden phone, late-night calls, same guy. She denies everything and gaslights me every time.

This was a long story so if you read it all thankyou sm :)