Traversing the gap between determinism and free will

I've always considered myself a determinism, but just changed my self-identification and flair. Here's an overview of why:

Why we DO NOT have free will:

Everything we are is everything we are not. This is readily apparent if you consider that we did not even exist once. From a physical perspective, nature and nurture is exhaustive. Our personality, our thinking patterns, our "choices" are a culmination of genetics, prenatal environment, parenting, nutrition, culture, and on and on. There is nothing that I've ever identified that can be said to fully originate inside of us alone, and unless you subscribe to metaphysical dualism (I see no evidence of this), there appears to be no escape from this.

In essence, we are a human shaped 'hole' in all of reality. This is anata, Indra's Net, interbeing, non-duality, and so on. I would contend that this can be observed through reflection, self-inquiry, meditation, and so on.

Why we DO have free will:

Anata is not the dissolution or denial of self but the recognition of the true nature of self, which is everything and nothing. It's the seeming paradox of non-duality and self/other as illustrated in Indra's Net.

And, so there still is a self. It's just not separate or independent. This will is the behavior attributed to our personhood, as a result of all we are, which is the cumulative pouring in of all that we are not. Interbeing. Insomuch as we even exist as an individual, we also possess a will of our own. Our will is not separate because we are not separate, but if we properly understand our own identity, we can also properly understand our own will. Both unique fingerprints and expressions of the whole of being, uniquely experienced from our own perspective.

I don't choose my actions or my will anymore than I chose to exist, but insomuch as I am my own person, the will is also my own. Perhaps it would make more sense to say a will has been gifted or applied to me by my very existence. What I call 'I' also has what I call 'will.' They're equally as unreal and real.

This is not "omg, look at me hoping on one foot and doing wild things that deviate from expectations" view of free will, but I do believe it creates a bridge between deterministic fate and will. This is really more of a labeling and categorical update than a change in worldview. Flairs in this sub can be misleading, multifaceted, and complex.

I welcome people's perspectives on this.