I’m always so confused

Truly have no clue what’s ment for me or some Ching u banged. This is why letters have names on them. So how do u expect me to communicate. Every time it felt like we communicated the next day u act like we didn’t talk. So I thought it wasn’t you. Ifs really just frustrating. Feeling like progress was made just hear crickets. So how did you think this was supposed to go?? You want me to just throw myself at you with passion. Honestly I feel u wud diss me cuz you wud enjoy to much. Seems like u want undying loyalty and not a partner. Is that what u want the kids to see. A dad with no backbone?? I want our kids to see us have problems and work it out you’re understanding I’m back-and-forth conversation and then meet somewhere on middle ground