6 weeks no contact and having a hard time

It’s been six weeks of no contact with my ex, and honestly, it feels like it’s getting harder, not easier. I thought by now I’d feel a little lighter, but I still wake up with this heavy ache in my chest. I miss him so much, and the urge to just send a simple text is overwhelming some days.

Part of me keeps imagining he’ll apologize, take accountability, and tell me he misses me too—that things will be different. I know deep down that’s just me clinging to hope and that reaching out would likely reopen the same cycle we were in. But when the loneliness hits, it’s so tempting.

I’ve been trying to remind myself why I started no contact in the first place: to heal, to break the cycle, to give myself space. But the emotional pull feels relentless. I feel like I’m fighting myself every day.

For those of you who’ve been through this—does it really get better? How do you cope when the urge to reach out feels almost unbearable?