Venting - Feeling dejected with jobs/career and state of the world....

I just have to vent. Idk if this is super SzPD but, I feel like y'all get it, if you know what I mean. (If it's against the rules - remove it - doesn't really matter anyway.)

I lost my first/only job of 8 years last November and was unemployed until this month when I finally landed a temp role that had the potential to become perm.

Well..I learned today, after my first week on the job, that they already hired someone for this role. And I'll be training them when they start later this month.

So now I have this job that I'm feeling super dejected in since I know it's not going anywhere. Earlier this week I was actually kind of enjoying the monotony of work (I'm in finance/accounting), but now it just feels pointless.

I should pretty much start up the job hunt again now since it took me so long to just get this role, but the thought of scanning job boards, sending resumes, getting rejections over and over...it's just the last thing I want to do.

I had felt such relief when I first got this job, and today that relief just vanished now that I know I'll have to start marketing myself again and interviewing. I hate talking about myself and I can never remember specific examples for interview questions even though I have a ton of experience.

Doesn't help that the world is rapidly sliding into a fascist, capitalistic hellscape either.

Idk...like I already have this intrinsic nihilism, but then you pile on the state of the world, my dwindling funds/debt, my reignited job hunt....

And since I like to keep informed, I'm acutely aware of all the suffering in the world, which is constantly being sized up against my own life and other's I see, and I know how good I have it. And then I look at the fascists in government, lining their pockets at the people's expense, not caring at all.

Sorry, that was a bit of a tangent. This just sucks. The job was so ideal, WFH, paid well, the work was easier than my last role.

Now I have to start all over...again.

Today I received a rejection email from a role I applied for over a month ago. That's not even the longest time delay I've had either. This factor alone fills me with dread..I feel like I'm just looking at another year of unemployment that I literally can't afford anymore.

Sorry...just had to vent and don't really have anyone I'd be comfortable venting to rn.