Are my symptoms similar to what everyone else (in Peri) is going through?

41/F here. Always was pretty regular until summer of last year.

My mood is wild. Some days I’m fine, no issues. Other days I am ready to burn my life down period. The other days are becoming more and more frequent. Used to be 2-4 a month and now it’s more like 15/25 days per month.

Family? I could care less. The man who I feel is actually my soulmate (finally am able to be with him after 20 years), I’m ready to walk away from forever and tell him to go find someone better. Work? I want to burn it down too. Major fuck it vibes. Humanity? Zero faith at all.

I just flat out don’t give a flying shit about anything and I don’t know why.

I think I also have depression and maybe some ADHD but I don’t know.

Will hormone therapy help with any of that ever or I am just mentally ill and/or crazy and f’ed?

I’ve never felt so bad for so long in my entire life. And I’ve been through a major accident at 22 that screwed me up for good.

Idk maybe I just have too much trauma. Bitterness. Shitty childhood issues. Tried to talk to a therapist but they keep trying to dig for stuff that didn’t happen or isn’t there. I’m losing all hope. Literally.