Probably gonna regret this but...

Ehi, guys. Hi. So... first of all i am 19, also i don't have much knowledge on these things and i had internet as my only source. I know you can't tell if i am ace just by a description on reddit. But maybe you can give your opinion, since it's probably the best reference i got. Promise i am not ginna take it as pure gold, but an help is always an help. If i found something to add, i am gonna edit my message.

I never was interested in having sex so i am still a virgin. I never had experiences, i am trying to understand if i am asexual also because i don't want to find myself with someone and realize that it's not what i want. I always found penetration repulsive. Every kind of penetration always felt so... unsettling. I have kinks (they don't involve sex) and i find kissing and hugging really romantic and nice. But i also found out asexuality is a spectrum and some aces likes kissing and some don't.

I have ADHD and slight neurodivergence. Does these things can be an influence? Waiting for answers, thank you for your time.