I hate talking

It’s so exhausting to me, I already talk so much at work as a Doctor and have many elderly patients, so I have to repeat myself and scream , which I don’t mind at all , I love them and treat them as I would treat my own parents and grandparents,

But I hate when someone else , colleagues or friends ,asks me to repeat myself more than twice or when others repeat themselves with no need, To me it’s like a type of energy that I don’t like to waste, if I’m talking other than at work I have to have a point, and if you’re talking to me , I need you to have a point , and talk with purpose, I also hate small talk , but ignoring people is rude so sometimes I just pretend that I didn’t hear the stupid question ,

All of this makes me seem rude, but it’s really something I cannot control 😩