At 33, I've never been to a wedding of my peers and it kinda makes me feel like a bit of a loser/reject. One could argue that it's the fact that my friend group is pretty unconventional, but I think part of it is that I simply don't have a huge breadth of friends, therefore limiting my chances.

I think about this once in a while and it kinda bums me out because it really says something about you if you've never been to a friend's wedding by this point in your life as someone nearly in their mid 30s. The even harder pill to swallow is that I do have a friend, who I was once pretty close with but have kinda drifted away from, who got married a few years ago and I'm 90 percent certain I just didn't get invited to their wedding. Perhaps they didn't have a whole big wedding celebration, but it seems unlikely considering they are both immigrants (albeit from a young age and my friend's family is mostly not living in the US, though his wife's family came here from Bosnia as refugees so her family is quite rooted in the US) and there is an obvious proclivity in immigrant groups to continue their traditional cultural practices so I seriously doubt they just eschewed tradition and had a small family gathering without the big party element attached to it.

My point here I guess is that I think I've always been that person who invests more into the friendship than the other person and I'll think about that person a lot more than they think about me, and if I just stopped communicating with them the friendship would eventually fall apart. To be fair I do have friends that are super close to me and would certainly invite me to their wedding, but sadly I can really only think of like one person I've met as an adult who I'm still friends with who I could envision inviting me to their wedding. On the other hand, my one friend, who I'm super close with, went to a slew of weddings in the past couple of years. Some of them were childhood friends, but at least half of them were people he met along the way in college and in his life working and living in NY, because, while he isn't a conventional guy, he's really good looking and smart and pretty successful so people who are the conventional success driven types are drawn to him in ways they would not be to me, so I genuinely don't get the opportunity to participate in a lot of the typical social conventions that most normies inevitably find themselves participating in. On some level I don't really want to be friends with people like that, but we all want to be liked and desired and when you aren't reeling in a lot of different types of people with the net you cast it makes you feel a bit like you don't have a ton of positive qualities that people notice and admire, and you were born to be a social reject and this is just how the cards were always going to fall.